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"Leave Me A Note"

11:50 a.m. - 2006-02-14

Valentine Schmalintine!

Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss"

You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship.

You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you

Your flirting style: friendly and sweet

What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance

Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

Funny this (above quiz) Ė Iíve decided that Iím the Ebenezer Scrooge of Valentines Day. Oh, donít get me wrong. Iím extremely happy for all of you love bugs our there. But personally Ė Iíd rather sleep through today.

I gave my sweetie a nice hand-made (by me) card this morning; some chocolate, and some poetic word magnets for the fridge. He gave me a card. However, I did inform him that heís paying for the movie tonight.

The BIG problem I have with Valentines Day is my expectations - or rather Ė my unmet expectations. What do you do with them? And how do you not create them in the first place?

I donít just mean concerning Valentineís Day. I mean in general.

My husband continually tells me that he has NO expectations Ė on anything or anyone. My first thought is ďthatís impossibleĒ Ö isnít it? Donít we all have expectations? Isnít that all part of disappointment?

Before I was married I absolutely hated Valentineís Day. Itís a stupid day, for people who have nothing better to do with their lives. Or rather, thatís what I thought and stood behind. Iím wrong, of course, but I canít help wondering why this day Ė more than most Ė creates so much anxiety for people. Iíve read it time and time again on blogs today. Single people that yearn for a relationship and think thatís the answer to their expectations around Valentineís Day. You couldnít be more wrong. Marriage gives no assurances that your expectations surrounding Valentineís Day are vanquished.

I admit that this is quiet possibly just me speaking. I have sometimes felt the loneliest on Valentineís Day while being married. And even as I write that, I know it all boils back down to my unmet expectations. Darn I hate that word!

Oh Lord, please just let it be February 17th when I open my eyes in a second. But even as I write that I realize that God has given me the best Valentine I could possibly have Ė His Son.

Happy Valentineís Day Ė I love you one and all.

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