11:50 a.m. - 2006-02-14
Funny this (above quiz) Ė Iíve decided that Iím the Ebenezer Scrooge of Valentines Day. Oh, donít get me wrong. Iím extremely happy for all of you love bugs our there. But personally Ė Iíd rather sleep through today.
I gave my sweetie a nice hand-made (by me) card this morning; some chocolate, and some poetic word magnets for the fridge. He gave me a card. However, I did inform him that heís paying for the movie tonight.
I donít just mean concerning Valentineís Day. I mean in general.
My husband continually tells me that he has NO expectations Ė on anything or anyone. My first thought is ďthatís impossibleĒ Ö isnít it? Donít we all have expectations? Isnít that all part of disappointment?
Before I was married I absolutely hated Valentineís Day. Itís a stupid day, for people who have nothing better to do with their lives. Or rather, thatís what I thought and stood behind. Iím wrong, of course, but I canít help wondering why this day Ė more than most Ė creates so much anxiety for people. Iíve read it time and time again on blogs today. Single people that yearn for a relationship and think thatís the answer to their expectations around Valentineís Day. You couldnít be more wrong. Marriage gives no assurances that your expectations surrounding Valentineís Day are vanquished.
I admit that this is quiet possibly just me speaking. I have sometimes felt the loneliest on Valentineís Day while being married. And even as I write that, I know it all boils back down to my unmet expectations. Darn I hate that word!
Oh Lord, please just let it be February 17th when I open my eyes in a second. But even as I write that I realize that God has given me the best Valentine I could possibly have Ė His Son.
Happy Valentineís Day Ė I love you one and all.