10:58 a.m. - 2005-01-19
Also on my hit-list this morning is My Own Journey. He said some seriously nice things about me and I didn’t even have to pay him. He’s a good man, but that could be because he looks a lot like my husband. Go give him a read, and you’ll thank me for it.
On to the regular trivial things that are my life. I’m a little pre-occupied with the tests I have to endure on Friday. Turns out that if you swallow barium, which you have to fast for (10 – 14 hours before), you break your fast by swallowing the barium. Which means that I can’t go for the myriad of blood tests I also have to take care of on Friday. But had thought to do AFTER said barium consumption. So … what that means is that I have to haul my sorry butt to the blood clinic by 7:30am, to follow up with the barium swallow test at 8:30am. Thankfully in the same building.
I am the kind of person who tends to believe the worst first. That way when the situation is resolved and it turns out that things weren’t as bad as I’d imagined, I feel more relieved than if I just thought positively to begin with. However, that said, I really think something is wrong this time, and I’m having a tough time letting go of the nagging feelings. I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt that God has me very firmly planted in His mighty hand, but ‘what if’s’ are clouding my judgement. “What if” He intends me to have a serious medical problem? What exactly do they do during a ‘full physical’? “What if” I have to completely change my lifestyle (eating, exercise – which really wouldn’t be a bad thing)?
As I write this verse just came to mind - Proverbs 3:5 & 6 – Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
I laugh out loud now because the next two verses read - Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.
Well … there’s a little bible lesson for both of us today. I get it Lord, now just bring peace to my heart, and help me not to snack, drink, or be merry on Thursday night.
I’ll keep you all posted. Now go and check out those blogs I told you about! Go!!